this headache sucks...

gak terasa udah saatnya si sakit kepala ini nyerang lagi, arrggghhhh...
kenapa juga sih wanita diberikan hukuman seperti ini ya Tuhan..?? sering gue membatin begitu, but the more i think about it, the more i thank God for this suffer becoz it literally make every woman stronger than a man, rite girlz>> hehehe...^^
sepanjang minggu kemaren gue disibukin dengan reunian dan jalan2 bareng temen2 gue, mulai dari duduk2 ngupi n makan2 di mall sama nita sambil bercerita about the year passed, terus blanja-blanji di mangdu with dinna n enca, dan mendengar kabar yang sangat mengejutkan pula, karna si ncu tiba2 bilang kalo dia bakal ke Belanda, congrats yah babe!!! i was really2 excited becoz of that..; sampe yang muter2 gading 1,2,3 sampe puegelz2 sama si yolie dan akhirnya ga sukses juga gue ketemu ama cowonya si yolie, secara beliau kagak muncul2 gitu ya sampe gue balik,,, hmmm,, i should meet that man anytime soon though.. you owe me one shot jo!!! hahhhaa.. sepanjang minggu itu pula gue serasa dapet a really fresh 'fresh air' from my life, gue bener2 bisa 'dikenal' lagi dan bener2 gue ngerasa hidup lagi sebagai gue, yang apa adanya, cablak, kembali ke masa2 kegilaan es-em-a, yang selamanya nggak akan bisa gue lupain, masa2 indah saat gue berbagi cerita dalam suka dan duka sama mereka, teman2 gue selayaknya gue apa adanya... oya, there's one thing i wanna tell y'all, there's this guy, my old time crush, and now he's dating my highschool friend, who's on the same major as his. Actually sometimes, it tears me apart inside out, but i really love this couple though.. seems like their chemistry is fully loaded, and i kinda like it. well, than yesterday, one of my best friend, she told me she still doesn't agree with them being a couple, and she doesn't know why, she just feels like they aren't made for each other. i can only smile and cheer her up when she was saying that, though i don't wanna deny that there are still hope floats in my heart wanting for that man... i wish i had the courage when we were still in HS... But that's just how life goes isn't it??? sometimes so cruel that we have to choose between the angelic and devilish side of ours... maybe, i am stupid, being fooled by this crush inside for like 4 or 5 years, hahahaa... I know, i should've moved on by now, but ever since I know about unconditional love and how love can tear you apart, i became philophobic. And so i decide to give up now... I think I really should move on with my life, believing that someday the love will come to fill my heart. i realize that i just waste my time to wait for him, and maybe we are just not meant to be.. I really want my life to be colourful again, just like it used to be...
I think giving up is the best idea, remembering my life is complicated enuff without me waiting for him.. I just want to thank him, because he has made me focused on whatever things i decided to do. Thank you K, God bless you two!!!
Btw, rite now, gue lagi keranjingan nonton grey's anatomy, gilaaa!!! keren ajeee... aseli dahh!! cinta banget aye same tu pelem.. it really teaches me A LOT about how will my life go through, because, "..Nobody knows how they might end up.."


this song, I've been totally 'in' to for these past few months..

Lifehouse's You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive