The first day of the Last Month of 2012

It's the 1st day of December 2012... The last month of the year, the month that the Incas and Mayans believe to be the month of apocalypse. But I don't buy it at all. Even though this is the last month of the year, there are so many agenda for today, and soo may blessings in my family... Today is world's AIDS day, there's a major traffic jam because of the celebration of that and welcoming Christmas... Tonight, our football aka soccer team is lgoing to play in AFF cup against the home team Malaysia, the team that has been insulting our team, even our country, calling us dogs!!! *angry tone

But on the other side, I'm soooooo glad, I am sooo blessed and I am really thankful for everything Gid has done to my life. Today is my husband's first day at work, God is always on time and never let His children down. Thanks Jesus..
Today is also the first day of some of my friends, being residents on some depts at the hospital, well, Welcome you guys!!! God bless u!!
And this month, my pregnancy's gonna enter the fifth month.. Thanks God for this baby inside, whom I call bubu.. Please guide us Lord, give us health and bless us always.. Amen.

That's my today's wish..

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Tonight I learn something, That things are not always as good as it seems And decisions people made are not always by logic mind Or maybe I'm just way too rational?? Well, I just found out that I still couldn't except the things I should have, and it's just because my heart feels uncomfortable with it. I have been told many times not to mess up with someone else's life, but I keep on feeling like hell when I saw their happy faces. I still smile, but deep down inside, I feel betrayed.. maybe this is the way he felt when I did the same thing before. Man, I just feel painful inside, and the worst part is I don't know when will it heal?

Being a wife, yet a student, and a doctor, made me realize that it is very difficult to keep everything right on it's track. I thought life would be beautiful after the marriage...weeeeeeewwwww.... It seemS that my love life is harder nowadays. Being in the same bed with the one you love is not always as good as being in the same bed with your besties on a slumber night.. The worst part is u have to be together with your spouse forever, no matter what. So u just have to get through the long phase of adjustments, and I think I haven't finished that phase. To the selfish me, the worst part is to surrender all of my wish list, take a deep breath, and just follow whatever things my hubby wanted... Hmm huh... Guess I'll have to learn a lot...