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Thursday, June 30, 2011

Silent Contemplation

Sebuah status BBM membuatku terhenyak dalam gelapnya malam

Isi status itu: apakah yang kita dapat di site sebanding dengan yang kita tinggalkan di rumah?

Di tengah kepanikan dan doa yang tak putus kupanjatkan demi kesehatan papa,

Muncul sepenggal kalimat yang membuat diri tertegun dalam kebisuan malam

Air mata jatuh perlahan, membasahi pipi yang belum tersentuh sejuknya air sejak pagi

Dinding beku hati ini hancur juga membaca kalimat itu

Terkadang, kenyamanan di jobsite membuai berlebihan

Walau kadang jiwa ini jengah menghadapi tumpukan pekerjaan dan ketidakadilan

*menarik napas panjang*

Sekarang aku baru mnegerti penggalan kalimat yang dulu diucap seniorku

..Susah dek, kalo kebutuhan sudah bertentangan dengan hati nurani. Kita harus berani memilih..

Ku akui, aku ada disini karena aku cari uang, untuk sekolahku nanti

Tapi kalau harus begini terus,

Semakin hari semakin kusadari bahwa yang kudapati disini tidak sebanding dengan yang kutinggalkan di sana

Aku pun harus memilih

Mana yang akan kupilih???

Hanya Tuhan yang kan beri ku jawabnya…

 

Warm Regards,

 

 

Shekina Rondonuwu

GP AEA - ISOS

Tembagapura, Papua

 

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Same Jay.Kay

Back in here, in the same crossroads I've been a few years ago.
A place with no corner to hide, no fence to cover, and no onw to cry on.
I've done wrong, I should be able to resist, but I just didn't do that.. Da*ned!!!
I just hate to say this, but I need my old fellas again.
I need them who can drag me out of this misery.
Well, I may be selfish and I know I'm not that beautiful,
but why this situation keep repeating itself again and again??
Oh Lord, help me,, strengthen me..
I just don't want to hurt anyone...
Just let we all be the same way we are..
Like the famous last words,nothing you could say can stop me going home..

Saturday, June 04, 2011

Moving On

The hardest thing to do after only a few months knowing you guys,
Is when I have to step my feet on the chopper,
and realized that I might not be able to see you again back there.
Crying because of a farewell is a very childish act, so I chose only to reminisce
Reminiscing those days we've had, the crazy times we've shared
The golden days when we still have each other by our sides,
Knowing that there will be shoulders to cry on, and warm hands to hug and comforting us
But now, there is none..
I have to get back and stand on my feet again,
Forgetting you and our memory will never do
That's why I have to move on.. Even though so hard,
and I'm not sure I could.. but I will try,,
to MOVE ON...