just to0 tired maybe..

sometimes i really wanna run, run far far away and hide... hoping all of these probs will be solved for its own good.. i really don;t wanna hurt evrybody's feelings, but if i choose one damn decision, there will always be 2 blocks. i'm tired.. if only those people want to draw back and just be a mediocre like what im doing now, maybe they will see, how selfish we can be in this kind of situation.. i just don't get it,, when it's about yourself, you just see others are all very selfish and self centered, but you never realized that you are one of them to0... Sh****TT!!!!! i think i'm done with all of this sh*t!!! Many things are rather more important than those things... One of them is Pak Manto,, Pak, cepet sembuh ya,, wish you all the besT!! We know God is always good to you...Amen. i really wanna go home, huhuhuhuuuu.... (!_!)
if only i cud meet you and talk to you now K, if only we have time... maybe i'm not gonna be this strong.. i'm not that strong K.. but thanks for making me that strong,, to face my own life and live in this harsh reality..

CapE,LelAH,LeTiH,LeSu

so tiring week... Fiuhhhhhh.... Gila,, cape banget boo!!!! tiap hari pulang di atas jam 10, weleh2... baru skarang ini nih gue ngerasain perlunya rantangan dalam hidup gue.. Hioohohohohoo.. tapi senang juga sihh, kan jadinya punya banyak pengalaman, dan semakin siap menjadi 'wanita yang seutuhnya'.. Bener deh, seminggu di obs, gue makin menyayangi wanita-wanita yang berada di sekitar gue, love them deeper, and appreciate them more and more evryday... Hari pertama jaga, banyak yang bikin gue terharu dan semakin sadar how hard to bring the little creature we call baby to life.. ;)
makasi buat temen2 gelombang gue yang sangat pengertian banget.. nyokap gue juga jadi ga rese nelpon2 akhir2 ini,, sori ma kalo banyak kali ina nggak ngangkat telpon even udah tengah malem, soalnya ga enak kalo telpon2 pas lagi bimbingan ma.. maap ya mah...
aduhh,, masih 3 minggu lagi dan 7 malam panjang tanpa tidur yang harus kulewati.. ohhhh noooo,,,,,, but that's the risk babe!!! huahhhhheeemmmm.. ngantoekkkssss....